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favourite songs of the week:

nelly furtado -- all good things come to an end
the submarines -- xavia
lenka -- the show
lenka -- trouble is a friend
robert pattinson -- [all of his songs lol]
the polyphonic spree -- light and day
sheryl crow -- detours
the killers -- human
gavin degraw -- chariot


my ipod has been dead for forever
and i'm kind of pissed at circuit city because i still haven't received my copy of the twilight soundtrack that i ordered.
grr. :P
Current Mood:
bored bored
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them: "If you go down to Hammond
you'll never come back
In my opinion you're
on the wrong track
We'll always love you but
that's not the point"



me:
"Well I went down to Hammond
I did as I pleased
I ain't the only one
who's got this disease
Why don't you face the fact
you old upstart
We fall apart"


we fall apart.
Current Mood:
contemplative contemplative
Current Music:
hammond song - the roches
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i hate people.
i hate ignorant people.
     i hate phony people.
     i hate shitty people.
     i hate selfish people.
     i hate catty people.
     i hate malevolent people
     i hate self-righteous people.
     i hate malicious people.
     i hate manipulative people.
     i hate political people.
     i hate judgmental people.
     i hate obnoxious people.
     i hate arrogant people.
i hate ignorant people.
i hate people.

...blehr.
ohk i'm done.



Current Mood:
angry angry
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so today i was cruising the bbc news site during my forensics class and i found an article about dido taking music classes in los angeles.
at the end of the article it mentions her new single "don't believe in love". she says "i want it to mean whatever anyone wants it to mean" which made me really think about it.

I wanna go to bed with arms around me
But wake up on my own
Pretend that I’m still sleeping
Til’ you go home

Oh I can’t look at you this morning
I should probably have a sign
That says ‘Leave right now or quicker’
You’ve overstayed your time

If I don’t believe in love nothing will last for me
If I don’t believe in love nothing is safe for me
When I don’t believe in love you’re too close to me
And that’s why you have to leave

Maybe I slept peaceful on your shoulder
Your arm warm around my side
But it’s different now, it’s morning
And I can’t face your smile

The second that I feel your safe hands
Reaching out for mine
I slip away and out of sight
You’ve overstayed your time

If I don’t believe in love nothing is good for me
If I don’t believe in love nothing will last for me
When I don’t believe in love nothing is new for me
Nothing is wrong for me
And nothing is real for me

When I don’t believe in love why do you care for me?
When I don’t believe in love nothing is real for me
If I don’t believe in love you’re getting to close to me
And that’s why you have to leave
And that’s why you have to leave

If I don’t believe in love
If I don’t believe in love
If I don’t believe in love
Nothing is left for me
If I don’t believe in love
You’re too good for me


really i think it's about those who take love for granted. or i guess that's what it's about for me. without love what would we be. as corny as that sounds it really does make you think. if absolutely no one loves us or cares about us we become nothing. we succumb to nothing.
having an ed sometimes one little comment can make the difference in a dismal day. one little show of affection from anyone changes me completely. it makes me feel like everything is worth it. even if it's only for that one second. it's still one second more.
just thought that was interesting.

what does the song mean to you??


<333

Current Mood:
contemplative contemplative
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this is my first icon set.Collapse )


the sizes are a bit off and few of 'em are blurry but i just thought i'd give it a go :).
please don't steal them.

tell me what you think!
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Current Mood:
sleepy sleepy
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The fall harvest is showing up in markets now, including many of the green vegetables children find so disgusting and yet are forced to eat. What is the most disgusting thing you’ve eaten, either by choice or against your will?

the most disgusting thing i've ever eaten...
narrowed down to two things, i'd have to say dog food and deer meat.
once when i was little i was tricked into eating dog food. and once in elementary school we had a potluck where we brought in something from the country's we were from that was of our heritage and this kid misunderstood and brought in deer meat of a deer his dad had shot and killed earlier in the week. it was just lovely. and the best part is that he didn't tell anyone what it was until the end of the project when we were presenting our little books we had made AFTER we had finished eating. and its not like it wasn't bad before you knew it was deer meat and then became disgusting. it was just gross. my teacher had thought it was spoiled jerky or something and then when he said it was deer meat we were all gagging.


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so i before i dunno... a month ago...?? i knew nothing about pro-ana or any of these communities where you could talk to people just like you everyday. which i think it mostly why i used to be so depressed before. anywho, along with not knowing about any of that i never really knew that much about eating disorders. i've always just kind of assumed that i was ana but i found out i'm not. apparently i'm ed-nos. i fit every single 'category' of it. except the one about having a regular period.

    • A person who severely restricts food intake but is not yet underweight by DSM-IV standards
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    • A female who meets all other criteria for anorexia but continues to have regular menstrual periods.
    • A person who regularly binges WITHOUT engaging in inappropriate compensatory behaviors such as purging (also known as a binge eating disorder)
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    • Someone who binges and purges but does not meet the frequency or duration requirements for a diagnosis of bulimia
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    • Someone who regularly purges after eating regular amounts of food, but is not yet "clinically underweight."
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    • Someone who regularly chews food and spits it out without swallowing, but does not meet the criteria for either bulimia or anorexia.
 
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..just though that was interesting...

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Hemingway was once challenged to write a story in only six words. His response? “For sale: baby shoes, never worn.” He is believed to have called it his greatest literary work ever. Can you write a story in six words?
Current Music:
Dumbledore's Army- Nicholas Hooper
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so the night before last me and my family were looking over some pictures from when me and my sister were little. and I couldn't help but notice, how different everything was then. though is was only 10 or so years ago, everything just seemed so different. lighter. more peaceful. there were pictures of our old homes and where we traveled all over the UK and the USA as well, and in them, there wasn't even a hint of fear, or danger, or doubt. everything was right. calm. but nowadays you don't get such a reassurance. now all you hear about is gas prices and global warming, war, disasters, crime. and it never lets up. nothing ever gets better. nothing ever seems to get resolved. because even if on the off chance something great is achieved something dark over-shadows it in it's next breath. it never lasts. things only seem to get worse. and people say "this is only the beginning, just wait to see what's waiting for us" on the horizon..what a comfort. i really hope that that means things are to be getting better because the way we're going nowadays what are to expect but more danger? more destruction? and ultimately more fear?
we live today in such a cloud of fear. it hovers over us, trapping the best of us in our small lives. forcing them into mediocrity and insignificance.
people of the world. stand up and look. what in hell are we doing. we all go about in our little routines day after day after day. how long will it take people to realize that things must change. they need to change. will this only be realized when our routines are broken, stripped from us, due to gas prices, or war, or whatever danger we may fear?
change is needed. no longer is it inevitable when nobody stops to take action toward it.
why are we so afraid of the world we live in? we need not be.
Current Mood:
contemplative contemplative
Current Music:
Lay Down by Priestess
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If you had to immigrate from your current home, where in the world would you choose to go?
Current Location:
home.
Current Mood:
bored bored
Current Music:
Stuck by Allister
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