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haven't been on here in forever.
sitting on my porch a little stoned smoking cigarettes. parents aren't home.

just b/p-ed again. did it yesterday as well. 

i feel shaky.
i am at the lowest weight i've ever been at. 115. and i feel so fat and ashamed of myself.

i know. i don't understand it either. 

i hate everything about myself. and it sickens me. everything. 
when people find me attractive it disgusts me. i dont understand it. and then i hate myself more.
how did i get to be this way? 

it's pathetic. 

Current Mood:
disappointed disappointed
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