haven't been on here in forever.
sitting on my porch a little stoned smoking cigarettes. parents aren't home.
just b/p-ed again. did it yesterday as well.
i feel shaky.
i am at the lowest weight i've ever been at. 115. and i feel so fat and ashamed of myself.
i know. i don't understand it either.
i hate everything about myself. and it sickens me. everything.
when people find me attractive it disgusts me. i dont understand it. and then i hate myself more.
how did i get to be this way?